Saturday, April 30, 2011

Let Go

The more successful revenge is achieved by being the best that you can be.

spreading rumors,
and gossiping,
only hurt you in return.

But by showing them how much better you are,
you not only make them feel inferior,
but rise to the top as well.

This is why I am the better person.
Not him.

People always say,
"keep you friends close,
and your enemies closer"
but why stay close to the people that make you feel bad?
Stay with the people who make you happy,
and truly great about yourself.
Not the people who bring you down.

Effort can take you anywhere.


Monday, April 25, 2011

In the Meantime...

I think I'm waiting to write a good post until some stroke of genius strikes me
because I kind of have really bad writer's block.
So I'm gonna post some of my favorite quotes from songs.
Not all of them are really deep, they just sound good in the song.

"I don't think you realize what you mean to me, not the slightest clue. Cause me and you were like a crew, I was like your sidekick" - Eminem (I Need a Doctor)

"Throw dirt on me, and grow a wildflower" - Lil Wayne (No Love)

"You showed me nothing but hate, you ran me into the ground.  But what goes around comes around" - Eminem (No Love)

"I'm not gonna stay and watch you circle the drain" - Katy Perry (Circle the Drain)

"In another life, I would be your girl. We keep all our promises, be us against the world" - Katy Perry (The One That Got Away)

"Everybody dies but not everybody lives" - Drake (Moment 4 Life)

"You lil brag-a-lot I'll beat you with a pad-a-lock" - Nicki Minaj (Roman's Revenge)

"Grab somebody sexy, tell 'em hey" - Ne-Yo (Give Me Everything)

"Now I don't really care what you call me, just as long as you don't call me cold" - Eminem (That's All She Wrote)

So I actually have a lot more, so I might post a Part II sometime.

Saturday, April 23, 2011


So my friend Ash has tagged me in this little questionnaire, so here goes!

What did you do ten years ago?
Well I would be six, so that means I was in first grade at the American British Academy in Oman.  Pretty cool, eh?

What did you do one year ago?
Hmm...well I would've just been recovering from my concussion and trying to catch up on all the schoolwork I missed while I was out for a month of school :(

Five snacks that you like?
Edamame, cheesy rice puffs, goldfish, gummies, popcorn

Five songs which you know the whole lyrics to?
Waaay too many, but:

Love The Way You Lie - Rihanna and Eminem
Lovestoned - Justin Timberlake
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
Not Like The Movies - Katy Perry
Give Me Everything - Pitbull

Five things you would do if you were a millionaire?
Donate to an animal shelter, donate to my sisters college fund, give some to my parents for retirement, put some in the bank, and then SHOPPING SPREE

Five bad habits?
Saying "sorry", giggling at everything during spanish class, breathing out of the wall (swimming lingo), procrastinating, and not getting high out of the water (water polo)

Five things you like to do?
Listen to music! Facebook stalk (jk?), shop, cuddle with my dog, Buddy, and play water polo

Five things you would never dress in or buy?
When girls wear leggings with like a short shirt and their whole booty is sticking out for the world, it's like, put on some pants!!! and one of those "I love my boyfriend shirts!" and a wig, and strapless top to school, and and thong to the beach

Five favourite toys?
don't have any?

Five people you'd like to see take this quiz?

(trying to pick people who haven't already been chosen...) 
Sunny & Star, erica marie, Lonneke, Cassandra, and Kay

Wednesday, April 20, 2011


There's a point you hit,
that revolves in complete peace,
every aspect of a content mind,
perpetually at ease.

This is where I reside today.
I feel every change in the weather
as if these nuances are differences in my emotions.

I feel every touch as if it is lightning,
shocking my body out of reality,
into a sort of dream state
where everything is at peace.

I'll Be

Friday, April 15, 2011


Age: 16 :(
Bed size: Queen
Chore you hate: cleaning the pool
Dogs: Buddy! (black lab)
Essential start of your day: Facebook :P 
Favorite color:  Purple, indigo, and turquoise
Gold or silver:  Silver
Height: 5'6"
Instruments I play (or have played): Clarinet, Guitar and I've attempted piano 
Job title: Intern in a microbiology lab
Kids: After marriage :)
Live: Los Angeles
Mom's name: Donna
Nickname: Grotz
Overnight hospital stays: Never
Pet peeve:  Lack of hygiene
Quote from a movie: "Long live the king" - Lion King
Right or left handed: Right
Siblings: Little sister Heather <3
Time you wake up: 7:00
Underwear: yes
Vegetables you dislike: Squash!! I hate squash!
What makes you run late: My sister haha always makes us late
X-rays you've had done:  Knee, small intestine
Yummy food you make: Grilled cheese!
Zoo animal: Any big cat

No Hands

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Empty Echo

My ex best guy friend is in love with my best girl friend
and he is the most unhygienic, idiotic, selfish, immature boy
I have ever met in my whole life.
I'd stake my life on that statement.

From claiming he can never hold a relationship,
to flirting with everyone he looks at,
from lying to a person's face
to talking behind their back
from blowing his nose in the same tissue he uses to pick his bloody pimples
to drawing unnecessary attention to himself,
I have had it with all of his ridiculous antics
and vain attempts to become popular.
I see through it all.

You mask your insecurities by giving people what they what
and then manipulating them in return.

But it's too late.
I see through your thick facade
that blinds everyone.
That used to blind me.

But I'm so over you
and everything you do.

I built this monster out of you.
You used to be weak and insecure and lonely
until I came along and strengthened your confidence in yourself
and created someone who had never been more sure of himself.
You are perpetually in this state of assurance
and I'm still working on finding a way to shatter it.
If only you knew that I know the truth behind your illusion.

I know your act better than I know myself
at times
and that's the one thing I can rely on.

I know your foibles
and I know your flaws

So take that, Daniel,
and see how far your capers take you.
Maybe not now,
but in ten years
we will see who won.

And I bet everything I own that you will fall, Daniel.
Long live the king.


Monday, April 11, 2011


I hate that feeling when you know what you have to do,
and you are just started to grasp the amount of pain you're going to have to go through
in order to reach the finish line.

It's the feeling you get when you realize you're going to pull an all-nighter.
It's the feeling you get when you discover that your 10 page paper is due the next day
It' the feeling you get when you see that you give your 30 minute speech before you go to prom.

It seems as if you can't ever have something good,
without suffering through something else first.

And sometimes,
it's your own fault.

You didn't do you work on time,
you procrastinated until midnight,
or you thought you could cram the night before.

But sometimes,
life decides to dump all this shit on you
and you can't see it,
but suddenly it hits you,
and you think
A very soft, inaudible, "oh."
And you're going to cry.
You know it.
You can't avoid it.
And you do.

I had no clue how tough junior year was going to be,
but now I know.
I understand.
Juggling AP Calculus and AP Biology and AP English
while trying to spend my spare time studying for the ACT and SAT II
and trying to squeeze in 2 hour swim practices and 3 hour water polo practices
is going to take more than a miracle to pull off.

But I'm going to try.

If you can't applaud me for the being the best for everyone else,
applaud me for being the best I can be for myself.

Give Me Everything

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Kitty Purry Round 2

So I haven't made a post about my Katy Perry obsession in a while,
so now I'm gonna make a post devoted to quotes she has said
that I love because I can relate,
or just because I like them.

"Sometimes love is a roller-coaster ride because one person is more obsessed than the other.  And it's hard to meet in the middle."

"I think it's sexier not to give it all away in one night."

"I really do believe that girls should go with their gut, and if there's any sort of yellow light, then check that yellow light.  It should always be green."

"Sometimes girls will be okay with someone and we'll think, This is what I deserve.  This is the best I can get.  And there's kind of this little scratch inside that's like, I don't think so.  You have to listen to that scratch.  You have to really know, beyond a shadow of a doubt."

"Look at the bigger picture and don't ever invest all of your emotions in a guy - you have to save some for yourself."

"I've also sent songs to people when I didn't have the guts to say something.  I would just make a mix and hope that they would fall madly in love with me."

"I don't really feel pretty ever, without makeup.  I feel ugly...He looks beyond all of that, which is such a win, because I've never felt that with anybody.  He's in love with the person on the inside of me, and the outside of me is just a bonus."

Thinking of You

Saturday, April 2, 2011


Last night he told me he loves me.
After almost two weeks of being together.

I can't tell if this is moving too fast,
but it felt okay until he said he loves me,
and I realized that I had to say it back.

For some reason it made me sad,
like I didn't want to get too involved
because I know he has to leave for college.

I just find it weird that I've always been the kind of person
that prefers commitment over a hookup,
but now I'm not so sure.

Blue Eyes