Sunday, June 12, 2011

Tunnel [Repeat]

Every month, I'm going to post one of my favourite posts from this same month, a year ago, and it'll have [repeat] next to the name so you'll know it's a repeat post.

Sometimes people have intentions
and expectations
and believe they know what they are doing
and think they know what will happen.

You can be so sure of something,
so focused,
but even then you can be thrown off path.

Nothing can change destiny,
no matter how hard you plead.
Things happen for a reason,
whether to learn something,
to prove something,
to gain something,
or to lose something,
so make the best of what life throws at you.

I did.
And if I didn't,
I would not be here now.
I wouldn't be sitting in this measly motel room typing on a laptop
waiting for the 16U game to start.
I would be in the 18U game.
Possibly a starter.
That is what I've always wanted, right?
To be the best I can be?
But sometimes life throws a curveball at you
and I had to change.
I realized that I couldn't go on like this
progressing at such a slow rate.

I tried my best but in the end,
I lost my head
but I gained my heart back.
another who can complete me
and won't leave me crying soft tears into my pillow at night.
One who wants the best for me,
honestly and truly.
It's not a joke.
Because he is doing everything he can for me.

And maybe at the end of the day,
when my best is not good enough for the team,
it's good enough for him.
And maybe this is what everything has been leading up to.

The future knows that it's better for me to be happy
than for me to be the best.
It knows that I can't take the pressure,
and still come through healthy in the end.

I've never felt this way before.
It's like every other post where I've written my feelings
was only minor compared to the way I feel now.
Because normally,
I head into the darkness blindly,
and stumble
and fall
but now I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
And that's where I meet you.


    I love your blog and the header is simply adorable.
    Take care. :) x

  2. Oh my. I love the words you used.

    "I tried my best but in the end,
    I lost my head
    but I gained my heart back.

    I could totally relate to this phrase. I also did something very stupid a few months ago. Thinking back, I wish that I never did what I did.. I was pitiful. Pathetic. I really lost my head. Didn't use my "brain".. But in the end, I gained my heart back.

    Everything does happen for a reason. We just have to work our way to find out what the reason is.

    Brilliant post, Hannah. :)

  3. thanks guys! and thanks for following me :)

  4. awww. I love this. It sums up what i feel perfectly.

  5. I loved this! You sure know how to channel your emotions. ;D
    Your header looks so sensational. Don't ever take it off.

  6. This is such a great idea...I'm really glad you decided to repost this...I love how everything about your writing is so honest.

  7. Yeah this way I can post some of my old favourites that went kind of unnoticed haha. I like to write about things I can't tell people in person :P so that's how my blog came about.