in the night
in my head
But last night I promised myself,
I promised the world,
and I promised the universe,
that never would I ever
become the monster you don't want.
I will never be that
beast of burden
that I have been in my past.
Every time I swear I will change,
but a new problem always arises instead.
But I've never ever wanted someone this badly,
needed them so much that it hurts my head,
and aches my bones.
I will change for you.