Metamorphosis

Sometimes
in the night
in my head
I scream.



But last night I promised myself,
I promised the world,
and I promised the universe,
that never would I ever
become the monster you don't want.

I will never be that
drama loving,
attention hogging,
internet relying,
cougar acting,
over protective
beast of burden
that I have been in my past.

Every time I swear I will change,
but a new problem always arises instead.

But I've never ever wanted someone this badly,
needed them so much that it hurts my head,
and aches my bones.
So,
I will change for you.