Consistency

I remember the first time I Saw you,
and you were helping me through the ropes
at Big Bear
and I fell flat on my face.

I remember the first time I Saw you,

when I was floating in the water,

and you were leaping through the air

off a rock cliff

and our eyes met.

I remember the first time I Saw you,

when you arrived to the house

and I was so anxious

until I saw your face,

and assumed that the next 10 days were going to be painful.

I remember the first time I Saw you,

when we were in the showers

and all my friends were joking around,

but all I could feel was your presence besides me.

I remember the first time I Saw you,

when I was sitting on the side

dangling my feet in the water

and stretching out my newly-hurt shoulder

and you were on the other side

eggbeatering 

and I knew that I couldn't let this pass

because you were too gorgeous.

I remember the first time I Saw you,

when we two knuckleheads

were sitting down together

both too injured to think clearly

but both with a story to share

and bond over.

I remember the first time I Saw you,

but wait-

Actually,

I don't...

and

I feel

like

I should,

but wherever that memory 

used to be

is no longer

and 

maybe this 

is a sign?

Or maybe it means

that this love

will be forgotten...

But I know that it can't

because I can never leave you

and I've tried time and time again

only to continue failing

and come running back to your love and support,

only to continue trying to leave you.

I guess it could pass as a consistent relationship at least...