and I was 14 and he took me too far,
way too fast.
I met him,
and 2 weeks later he kept trying to get me alone so we could make out,
and I hated it.
I hated this so much.
And at the time I was confused because I thought I liked him,
I mean he was very attractive,
so how could I not like him?
But eventually I broke up with him because he kept moving too fast.
I told myself it was because I was just immature,
and he was too old for me.
Boy, was I wrong.
It wasn't me that was wrong with that relationship,
it was him.
I realize now that I could not be myself with him,
I could not be open with him,
I felt like I had to be perfect to be with him,
and I felt like I could not say what I needed to say with him.
I felt completely closed and lost,
and it wasn't because I was immature.
It was because I just didn't like him.
And now I feel bad for leading him on for those three months,
but at the same time I don't because it took me two years to figure it out.
Just Can't Get Enough
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MUCo7vM-FCk
When relationships are right, it's such a beautiful thing.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you've found someone that you feel like yourself around... that's such a lovely thing.
ReplyDeleteIt's so awesome! It's like, if you don't feel that it's right, don't stick with it and hope things get better. When people used to tell me "you'll know when it feels right" I didn't really believe them, but now I totally get it. It feels completely right now so I'm super happy! :)
ReplyDeletelovely words dear x
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post.
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