Lights

The last time I had a boyfriend was a while ago,
and I was 14 and he took me too far,
way too fast.
I met him,
and 2 weeks later he kept trying to get me alone so we could make out,
and I hated it.
I hated this so much.
And at the time I was confused because I thought I liked him,
I mean he was very attractive,
so how could I not like him?
But eventually I broke up with him because he kept moving too fast.
I told myself it was because I was just immature,
and he was too old for me.

Boy, was I wrong.
It wasn't me that was wrong with that relationship,
it was him.
I realize now that I could not be myself with him,
I could not be open with him,
I felt like I had to be perfect to be with him,
and I felt like I could not say what I needed to say with him.
I felt completely closed and lost,
and it wasn't because I was immature.
It was because I just didn't like him.

And now I feel bad for leading him on for those three months,
but at the same time I don't because it took me two years to figure it out.

Just Can't Get Enough
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MUCo7vM-FCk

Raindrops

It took tonight to realize how much I've grown.

It used to be that every time he kissed me,
I shrunk away in fear.
It used to be that every time he put his arm around my waist,
I had no idea what to do.
It used to be that every time he talked,
I just nodded and went along with everything.

But now it's so different.
Who cares if some people don't like who I am,
because he likes me no matter what I do.
Who cares if I laugh my head off,
grab his head
and pull him closer.
Who cares if people are watching
and we act like we're crazy for each other.

Because that's the only way.
That's the only way to be happy.
And right now,
this is as good as it gets.

Boom
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=epBpVHqLJrQ

Sparkle

If there's anything I've learned this week,
it's that you should never close the door to new experiences.

I used to think there was some certain way
I had to act
in order for a guy to like me.

I used to think there was some sort of "type"
and that every guy I could date
would have to fit into those requirements.

I used to think that in order to be great at something,
you had to be doing it
since you were a toddler.

But this week,
I opened my eyes.
I learned that if you try hard,
you can actually get anything you've ever wanted.
Well,
almost.

But if you open your eyes,
you realize how much you have been missing
that has always been right in front of you.
And that, in itself, is the most beautiful wonder of the world.

Green Eyes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QbAZiVRG6h0

Leopard

How did this happen?
It's like one minute,
I'm so sad about how no one ever likes me,
and the next minute,
we're snuggling together under the blankets on the couch in my shed
while my parents are out at dinner.

Who am I?
When I think of myself,
I never imagine having guts to do that kind of stuff.
I always imagine that it would be awkward
to do anything that the girls who have boyfriends do.
But with him,
it's so real.
I swear I don't know anyone more real.

Iris
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NdYWuo9OFAw

Teenage Dream

You think I'm pretty without any makeup on
You think I'm funny when I tell the punch line wrong
I know you get me so I let my walls come down
Before you met me I was alright but things were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February you'll be my Valentine

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I, we'll be young forever

You make me 
Feel like I'm living a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back
Don't ever look back
My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back.

We drove to Cali and got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and built a fort out of sheets
I finally found you, my missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I, we'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like I'm living a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back
Don't ever look back
My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back.

I'ma get your heart racing
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
Let you put your hands on me
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

You make me
Feel like I'm living a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back
Don't ever look back
My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back.

Shattered

I feel like sometimes,
I don't even want to bother with you
because what are the chances that you even like talking to me.

But then you'll crack a joke,
tease me when I mess up,
or complain about our homework,
and I don't know what to think.

Maybe you're confused,
and think I'm really cool.
Or maybe you're delusional,
and think that I might be attractive.
Or maybe you're just polite,
and every day I make a fool out of myself.

Guess I'll never find out.

Jumper
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QdgCajndgNw