6 AM

I couldn't sleep.
Every time I tossed
and turned
I flipped over and hit a new sore spot.
But that isn't the main problem.

With every movement I thought of you.
I woke up early from this feverish sleep
thinking of
your eyes,
your smile
and everything about you that I can't decide whether to love or let be.

I laid there,
just staring at the stars on my ceiling,
faintly glowing,
signifying the arrival of Dawn.
But I still haven't left this Night.

Split Differences

I'm caught between two sides.

There is the part of me that wants to cherish this friendship,
this once in a lifetime thing for me,
because I may never have this connection again.

But then there's the sweet, enticing side
That lures me in every time I look into your eyes,
and I can't focus on what I truly want.

I've been told that my eyes light up when I look at you.
Maybe it's true,
But I can't tell for sure.

What I can tell is that you are supposed to be with the person who
makes you laugh,
is always going to be there for you,
loves you even when you do stupid things,
and most importantly:
Will never let you down.

It's funny how this list also describes the qualities of a best friend...

Curiosity Killed the Cat

It's kind of funny, actually.
I can't put my finger on what it is
that makes you so attractive,
and me so helplessly curious to know more.

My fatal flaw: curiosity.
I want to know more about you,
and I can't wait til Friday night.
but I'm curious to know what you're thinking,
but I can't read minds.

It's not fair,
and I always wish I knew everything,
but I'm pretty sure if I had this power over people,
I would regret it.

Sometimes, it's better to be naive,
or at least pretend to be.

Pulse

At the beginning, we're all nervous.
It's the kind of awkward feeling
when no one really knows what might happen.
But it's inevitable.

The crowd gets bigger,
louder,
wilder,
and soon it drags me in, too.

I love the beat.
The rhythm.
The pulsing
of the bass,
pounding into my blood
and it doesn't stop there.
My bones shake,
and my body sways
cause it can't get better than this.

I feel everyone around me,
moving completely synchronized,
and its' awesome.
Otherworldly.
I don't have to be myself,
or remember who I am.
I can
just
let
go
for once, and live without worry.

All I need is someone who can keep up.

Unnatural [Song]

I have another song I wrote about a month ago, and I never posted it on here cause I was being lazy, but here it is now :)

When it all started
You made your move
and you don't even know how well
I fell under your spell

But I'm trying not to lead you on
Although my emotions tell me which way
I should be heading
Because

We can never be together
Because of the way things are
And it's not natural
For this to happen
And for now it won't work out
Because we can't be seen together
Just give it time, people will change
and we'll grow older
But for now, let it go
we're just friends

How could I
try to play you like a game
Cause I've never been good at chess
Every time I make a move you think of another way

I know you're trying
and it's working cause I can't get away
I know which way I should be heading
But I can't move there because

We can never be together

Because of the way things are

And it's not natural

For this to happen

And for now it won't work out

Because we can't be seen together

Just give it time, people will change

and we'll grow older

But for now, let it go

we're just friends

And how is this

Killing me so slowly

You'll keep making moves

and I'll keep fighting

Even though, in the end

We'll never benefit 

from any of this

because

We can never be together

Because of the way things are

And it's not natural

For this to happen

And for now it won't work out

Because we can't be seen together

Just give it time, people will change

and we'll grow older

But for now, let it go

we're just friends